Thursday, July 30, 2009

the place where i wanna be

... the beach.

once upon a time
i'm sorry, this is just TOO FUNNYla, BFF

Monday, July 27, 2009

Thinspiration Monday

if Lindsay did it,
why can't we?



Saturday, July 25, 2009


"L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please dont break it
Love was made for me and you
" - nat king cole

i miss how it feels like when you do silly faces to steal a smile from me
i miss those times when i catch you glancing over at me.
i miss how it feels when your hand approaches mine.
i miss listening to your heart speak. literally.
i miss how warm it is to be in your arms.
i miss your gentle whisper on my ear.

i miss you.

beauty from pain

"After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain"

oh, how i adore superchick & their songs.


this is absurd... -.- i've ignored 41 requests just now;
what a wreck.

why do weird people/strangers even bother to enlarge their number of friends on facebook especially? i mean, i'm not being ignorant but at least, if you really wanna be friends - send me a message; introduce yourself or just a simple hi would do! i feel that it's kinda rude when you go around adding people you don't even know of unto your facebook. i would prefer to have contacts on my facebook who are REALLY friends, not just some weirdo or stalker or "i-just-add-you-to-make-me-look-like-i-have-heaps-of-friends" blah. get a life.

so many strays infront of my place!
& this is their everyday hang out place =p

why this title you may ask.
on Wednesday I went to get my first Miro-Fractional Laser treatment done on my face

Purpose : Tired of photoshop & i want an airbrushed complexion LOL.
Well, when I turned 16, severe acne hit me - it changed my life, took away my happiness for a while and robbed me off my self confidence; yes. i had Acne Vulgaris; considered one of the most severe acne cases. ("right click, open link in new tab" for photos from google). I hated myself at that point. Hated the way people used to stare. Hated it when people ask "ohmygod what happened?". I remember tearing whenever I look into the mirror. it sucks. With proper consultation and medication, the acne went away. But they left me with deep horrible scars. Right after, I went for 6 IPLaser treatments, it kinda helped to lighten up the scars.. but yet, it won't go away. until today, when i look into the mirror, man, i don't remember when was the last time i had skin this nice =) thanks to modern technology.

LOL.. laugh all u want, cuz im laughing too
i'm the one on the right. man, i had mono eyelids -.-
look at the acne! couldn't find a better picture to show you guys
(will try to find where i kept the CD for the old pics)

Benefits :
i. One time of this equals 3-5 times IPLaser treatment
ii. Cures severe acne scars + sun-damaged skin + accident scars
iii. Reverses what time does to your skin
iv. Improves your skin texture

Downfall :
i. HURTS LIKE MAD although numb cream was applied 45 minutes before the treatment started. i almost teared during the process :(
ii. I even took painkillers (paracetamol) right after..
iii. Redness; you'll look like you're horribly sun-burnt and it may last up to 6 days
iv. Skin may peel on the 4th-6th day
v. 30-45 minutes directly after the treatment, you'll feel like your skin is burning. literally. (DAMN PAINFUL AHHH @#$#$%$%^#$#@!#$%^&*!!!)

Cost :
i. It's around RM3k for 6 times but please consult your skin specialist/doctor; price may vary.

Results :
Today is the 3rd day of my 1st Microfractional Laser treatment. My skin's reacting really good to it although I have to apply tons of moisturizer throughout the day.. I can already see the difference and it feels smoother + tighter =) despite of the redness, people are already complementing!

Remarks :
It is completely safe. The laser beam that is projected into the skin acts to "awaken" the tissues in the epidermis layer. Proven scientifically.

(note : these photos are not edited except for the copyright)

box box box box

more box box box box box box on the right side of my face
*contact me if you're interested to seek skin help - i know a good doctor*

but the boxes on my face didn't really stop me from going out
all i needed was a cap :P

had dinner at sushiking with bernard and daniel
they call me "ciu-ciu-ciu"(lasergun) face -.-

played snooker with the boys

this will be up next ;)

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Erin Wasson

hahahaha :P
will update about the 70s night party soon
stay tuned, loves.

I love Erin

yeah. sometimes.
in malls especially

Tuesday, July 21, 2009


these words are my own.
from my heart flow.
disregard this post if you are to critique.

argh. i don't know really.. food has been one of my biggest enemies in life at the moment LOL
It's always a struggle when it comes to lunch time especially..
Sometimes I feel like giving into food when I feel tired or fatigue;
but nothing's gonna stop me!

yeps; once all of us hit 90lbs (for petite girls)
and 105lbs (for average girls)

I weighed myself today. 110lbs. lost 2lbs in 2 days.. :)
just 5 more lbs to lose in one month, to be exact.

so on day 1,
breakfast : a boiled egg (90 calories) & coffee (97 calories)
lunch : 2 small pieces of fish fritters (120 calories plus minus) & boiled egg (90 calories)
dinner : coffee (97 calories) & a tropical fruit (80 calories)
total : 574 calories

day 2
breakfast : as above (90 + 97 calories)
lunch : fried egg (110 calories), some cauliflowers (50 calories) & black coffee (80 calories)
dinner : coffee (97 calories), a few tropical fruits (100 calories) & medium egg (95 calories)
total : 614 calories. yikes =.=

day 3
goal : 400 - 500 calories. we'll see.

a lindsay lohan thinspo

lindsay lost so much weight;
but i don't think she exercised.
she didn't look like she did ;p

source : scoop

kate moss

erin wasson
kiss my tushhhh

Monday, July 20, 2009

Te Amo

this just in.

blazer- stella mccartney
cutoffs- erinxrvca
clutch- alexander mcqueen
tank- alexander wang
wedges- office
fabulous Erin Wasson

ink baby. ink!
source : tfs

Lin Chong, Kit, Ben, Tannie, Joyce Ang Angggggg, Chong Wei, Carter & Michele..
I miss you guys to the max

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Thinspo; a moment on the lips, forever on the hips

Everybody needs some thinspiration sometimes..
I think I've put on a couple of idk, fats although the weighing machine doesn't show..
Heart-wrecking! :(

going back to the 70s/80s ROFL

killer legs


reverse thinspo

totally gross.
imagine how damaging calories and yummy food can be.

starting weight : 59 kg / 130 lbs (late 2008)
lowest weight : 50 kg / 110 lbs

current weight : 51 kg / 112.4 lbs
goal weight : 48 or 49 / 106 lbs or 108 lbs


good night world

i'm getting old. it's proven.
it's past midnight when i got home from the 70s-themed-party..
had a blast & was tempted to upload the photos unto facebook
but i'm giving in, i'm going to bed for now.

where to get the pink corset?