Showing posts with label Personal. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Personal. Show all posts

Friday, November 12, 2010

Thinspiration Thursday [12/11/2010]

& so I skipped Wednesday.

seriously.
do you think we could all fit so nicely into these clothes if we have
cupcakes on our waistlines and pig-like-thighs?
no way.

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skip dinner. be thinner.

Friday, August 28, 2009

home sweet home


dipping in mud, at Tangkuban Perahu, Bandung (Volcanic site)
was exhausted tho, hiked quite a bit to get up there!


been away for a week now...
Jakarta was a blast
everything was cheap; from clothes to food!
HAVEN.

updates soon!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

sometimes you just don't wanna wake up...


“I love sleep. My life has the tendency to fall apart when I'm awake, you know?”
ernest hemingway


Monday, August 17, 2009

when.

i can't do it.
stupid assignment :(
writer's block.
__________________________________________________________________

we were standing half-naked and knee-deep waiting to be soaked in salt water.
we were screaming, holding each other as tight as our cold muscles would permit.
sand filled the gaps in between our toes, and smiles were carved on our faces;
our laughter filled the air.
oh yes, when the waves caressed the shore, we fell in love.

-

when night fell, the air froze and send chills up our spine,
our hearts endured as we laid together on the grass in your back yard;
our hair thick with dirt, our breath thick with lust; our bodies kept us warm.
when night fell we couldn't see each other clearly,
but we knew the other was smiling, too.
we watched shy stars emerge from behind the night sky as we hold us tight.

-

when you left, i didn't cry, i didn't sleep for my heart froze.
to the beach i went and stood, half-naked and knee-deep, waiting to drown.
every single splash of water reminded me of your fingers across my skin.
when you left, i held myself as tight as my tired muscles would permit.
then i realized i didn't know who i was without you.

-

Saturday, August 08, 2009

dear diary,

080809
today i don't remember when's the last time you told me the things he told me.
& today i asked myself why do i need to hear, and to see in order to believe? i don't know.

070809
today you told me you miss me.

171008
today we met again.

----06
today i had enough and left.

--1105
today you showed me how vague love can be.

070805
today you told me you love me.

040705
today you called me beautiful.

060605
today is your birthday.

--0505
today we became good friends.

--0405
today, we met again.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

11:59PM

"L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore


Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please dont break it
Love was made for me and you
" - nat king cole








i miss how it feels like when you do silly faces to steal a smile from me
.
i miss those times when i catch you glancing over at me.
i miss how it feels when your hand approaches mine.
i miss listening to your heart speak. literally.
i miss how warm it is to be in your arms.
i miss your gentle whisper on my ear.

i miss you.


beauty from pain

"After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain"

oh, how i adore superchick & their songs.


anyhow,

this is absurd... -.- i've ignored 41 requests just now;
what a wreck.


why do weird people/strangers even bother to enlarge their number of friends on facebook especially? i mean, i'm not being ignorant but at least, if you really wanna be friends - send me a message; introduce yourself or just a simple hi would do! i feel that it's kinda rude when you go around adding people you don't even know of unto your facebook. i would prefer to have contacts on my facebook who are REALLY friends, not just some weirdo or stalker or "i-just-add-you-to-make-me-look-like-i-have-heaps-of-friends" blah. get a life.



so many strays infront of my place!
& this is their everyday hang out place =p



BEAUTY FROM PAIN
why this title you may ask.
on Wednesday I went to get my first Miro-Fractional Laser treatment done on my face

Purpose : Tired of photoshop & i want an airbrushed complexion LOL.
Well, when I turned 16, severe acne hit me - it changed my life, took away my happiness for a while and robbed me off my self confidence; yes. i had Acne Vulgaris; considered one of the most severe acne cases. ("right click, open link in new tab" for photos from google). I hated myself at that point. Hated the way people used to stare. Hated it when people ask "ohmygod what happened?". I remember tearing whenever I look into the mirror. it sucks. With proper consultation and medication, the acne went away. But they left me with deep horrible scars. Right after, I went for 6 IPLaser treatments, it kinda helped to lighten up the scars.. but yet, it won't go away. until today, when i look into the mirror, man, i don't remember when was the last time i had skin this nice =) thanks to modern technology.


LOL.. laugh all u want, cuz im laughing too
i'm the one on the right. man, i had mono eyelids -.-
look at the acne! couldn't find a better picture to show you guys
(will try to find where i kept the CD for the old pics)


Benefits :
i. One time of this equals 3-5 times IPLaser treatment
ii. Cures severe acne scars + sun-damaged skin + accident scars
iii. Reverses what time does to your skin
iv. Improves your skin texture

Downfall :
i. HURTS LIKE MAD although numb cream was applied 45 minutes before the treatment started. i almost teared during the process :(
ii. I even took painkillers (paracetamol) right after..
iii. Redness; you'll look like you're horribly sun-burnt and it may last up to 6 days
iv. Skin may peel on the 4th-6th day
v. 30-45 minutes directly after the treatment, you'll feel like your skin is burning. literally. (DAMN PAINFUL AHHH @#$#$%$%^#$#@!#$%^&*!!!)

Cost :
i. It's around RM3k for 6 times but please consult your skin specialist/doctor; price may vary.

Results :
Today is the 3rd day of my 1st Microfractional Laser treatment. My skin's reacting really good to it although I have to apply tons of moisturizer throughout the day.. I can already see the difference and it feels smoother + tighter =) despite of the redness, people are already complementing!

Remarks :
It is completely safe. The laser beam that is projected into the skin acts to "awaken" the tissues in the epidermis layer. Proven scientifically.


(note : these photos are not edited except for the copyright)

box box box box



more box box box box box box on the right side of my face
*contact me if you're interested to seek skin help - i know a good doctor*


but the boxes on my face didn't really stop me from going out
all i needed was a cap :P

had dinner at sushiking with bernard and daniel
they call me "ciu-ciu-ciu"(lasergun) face -.-



played snooker with the boys



this will be up next ;)


Tuesday, July 21, 2009

THIN is IN

these words are my own.
from my heart flow.
disregard this post if you are to critique.


argh. i don't know really.. food has been one of my biggest enemies in life at the moment LOL
It's always a struggle when it comes to lunch time especially..
Sometimes I feel like giving into food when I feel tired or fatigue;
but nothing's gonna stop me!


yeps; once all of us hit 90lbs (for petite girls)
and 105lbs (for average girls)

I weighed myself today. 110lbs. lost 2lbs in 2 days.. :)
just 5 more lbs to lose in one month, to be exact.

so on day 1,
breakfast : a boiled egg (90 calories) & coffee (97 calories)
lunch : 2 small pieces of fish fritters (120 calories plus minus) & boiled egg (90 calories)
dinner : coffee (97 calories) & a tropical fruit (80 calories)
total : 574 calories

day 2
breakfast : as above (90 + 97 calories)
lunch : fried egg (110 calories), some cauliflowers (50 calories) & black coffee (80 calories)
dinner : coffee (97 calories), a few tropical fruits (100 calories) & medium egg (95 calories)
total : 614 calories. yikes =.=

day 3
goal : 400 - 500 calories. we'll see.

a lindsay lohan thinspo

lindsay lost so much weight;
but i don't think she exercised.
she didn't look like she did ;p


source : scoop



kate moss



erin wasson
kiss my tushhhh

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Thinspo; a moment on the lips, forever on the hips

Everybody needs some thinspiration sometimes..
I think I've put on a couple of idk, fats although the weighing machine doesn't show..
Heart-wrecking! :(
That's it. DIET STARTS TOMORROW.


going back to the 70s/80s ROFL







killer legs









yummy..


reverse thinspo

totally gross.
imagine how damaging calories and yummy food can be.


starting weight : 59 kg / 130 lbs (late 2008)
lowest weight : 50 kg / 110 lbs

current weight : 51 kg / 112.4 lbs
goal weight : 48 or 49 / 106 lbs or 108 lbs

BY AUGUST 31ST.


Tuesday, July 14, 2009

cloudlike promises

ALL of YOU are the same.
at least i once thought you weren't.



what would you do when you know something's coming but you still f&*kin wanna dip your freakishly versatile yet fragile heart in?
dumb ass.


tomorrow's a different day.
we'll see.

Friday, July 10, 2009

confessions of a shopaholic

Dear Readers & Friends, I've been such a busy bee lately. my 1st semester for my 3rd year in the University has just started on Monday.., I now have to juggle with my time for the first few weeks - just to get used to it. Thank you for the comments, emails and support. Drop by more often, you're already missed!


SHOPAHOLIC ON THE LOOSE!
'nuf said.

Forever21 denim shorts. i finally bought YOU!
was having such a hard time tryin to pick out one out of so many!
i think i spent like 30minutes just trying to make up my mind.
pfft. indecisive brat! now i want another one; a stressed/ripped pair of dark denim shorts.




and YOU too; light skinnies.




Erin Wasson & Alexander Wang
Got the medium-high-waisted shorts.. Need a big bulky belt now.




the Romans did leave something behind;
THE shoes.

NINEWEST *clickable* Gladiator Flats.

totally bought YOU. yummy.



NEXT ON THE LIST.


Plain boyfriend shirt bought ;)
Black shorts; mine's been in the wash way too many times now.
Just look at those sexylicious ankle-boots! - Fendi *clickable*
Bag - Alexander Wang *clickable*



spotted this last week. but in black and brown.
hm. should i? i'm becoming a shoe-holic!!!! gah.


Wednesday, July 08, 2009

Gadgets

let's just be boys for one moment. these 3 cameras are such beauties.. want to get one but i'm torn in between decisions. fickle mindedlah me. these 3 beauties pretty much possess the same functions; smile detection, anti-blur, etc etc etc.



T700 in pearl/peach
it's so sleek, with no rough edges.. this baby is the latest model from Sony. totally upgraded and improved in some ways but sometimes, upgrades are not really that necessary - right? i love the design of this one although the price is a little bit too much for a 10.1MP pocket camera.


T700, plus minus RM1499.
- 4GB Internal Memory
- 10.1 Mega Pixels with Super HAD CCD
- Carl Zeiss Vario-Tessar Lens with 4x Optical Zoom
- 3.5" Full Wide Touch Screen LCD
- Double “Anti-blur” Solution: Optical SteadyShot and ISO 3200 High Sensitivity
- Intelligent Scene Recognition







T77/Skinny-T in limegreen
this is such a beauty! it's sooooo thin and light. what more, they have it in limegreen - so HOT! it's definitely a plus! it's a little bit too small/thin for the hand though :( but it's economical. jeez.


T77, RM999
- 10.1 Mega Pixels with Super HAD CCD
- Carl Zeiss Vario-Tessar Lens with 4x Optical Zoom
- 3.0" Full Wide Touch Screen LCD
- Intelligent Scene Recognition







T90 in hot pink & black.
pink stands out like mad but black's more subtle, and cool. a normal pocket camera.., with a not too bad price. but it's a little bit too thick compared to the two previous models above. it also has that hook-like thingy on the left which i'm not a fan of.

T90, RM1299
- 12.1 Mega Pixels
- 3.0" Clear Photo LCD Plus
- Intelligent Scene Recognition



confused. HELP!!!!



Sunday, July 05, 2009

my heart goes shalala-lala~

I've FINALLY received the letter from Georg-Simon-Ohm which was dated on the 4th of June -.-" Funny. Anyhow, I don't even know how to pronounce the name of the University properly LOL. I've got so many things to do, so many decisions to make, so many deadlines to meet but yet, so little time!

If I were to choose to go
for this exhange program, I've to go all the way down to KL to get my Visa done, renew my passport, translate my insurance policy into German and book my flights as soon as possible. Can't believe it - I've got less than 2 months to go.



so on & so forth....
yada yada yada.



seriously. i can be on the cover of a magazine k :P
The OMG magazine.. ROFL. Thank God I've decided to make McDonalds & KFC my enemy.
Anyhow, I can't wait to meet all of you again tomorrow.. it's been too long! ♥



hometown buddies..
all scaterred in different parts of Malaysia for studies :(



with KERRY AH CHANNNN.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

the road less taken?

I don't remember when was the last time I felt so torn between decisions. Yeah, I may be a fickle minded person at times but let me tell you, I have never been so bothered my whole life. What would you do? Would you even consider yourself hopping into an airplane half a world away for 6 months and leave everything behind knowing that things will never be the same again? Or would you just stay where you are and submerge yourself with great moments shared with loved ones?

I don't wanna miss out on things; I don't want to have to leave so many loved ones and things behind just to satisfy the needs of wanting to venture all around the British soil. I know if I leave, everything is going to take a huge change. So drastically that I might not be the same Minny that you know. On the contrary, I am aware that if I don't grasp this opportunity, I might feel upset about it in the future and feel like a total fool for giving it up.

I left the television on, my favorite drama is showing. I can't sleep. I can't focus. Every time I start thinking about this, I get a pinch of fear. I don't like change. I don't want to start new. I don't want to leave. This is rather complicating because at the same time, I want to go and do the things that I've always wanted to. What's stopping me? My emotions? My fear of the unknown? Jotting down my feelings and thoughts is not an easy task, after all.





Yeah. So finally Georg-Simon Ohm University, Nurnberg Germany has sent me a letter of acceptance. I'm so thrilled and grateful that I got accepted in. I don't even have to pay for my tuition fees nor for my flight tickets. I just have to pay for my accommodation and expenditures. A dream come true.





This is all happening too fast. It's already almost JULY and I have to be in Germany before September 2nd. That means, I will have to say my goodbyes during mid August..






So many feed backs. I need more anyway. Most people encouraged me to go for it.. If I were them, I would do the same too. I get to travel around Europe and at the same time, have a great life-changing experience out of it. But, I don't know. I don't want to make a decision that I will regret. Can I handle myself when I'm there? - physically, spiritually, financially and emotionally? Can I even deter from feeling home sick? Should I go? :( My heart aches every time I think of leaving Penang for Germany. The irony. sigh.

friends. family. you.
If only you know how this feels
I'm gonna miss you
I'm gonna miss all of the moments that we are now sharing
& miss out on all of the memories that we can craft together.