he's my hero.

alexander wang fall collection

birthdayweek.

minny.

beauty from pain

"After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain"
oh, how i adore superchick & their songs.


anyhow,

this is absurd... -.- i've ignored 41 requests just now;
what a wreck.

why do weird people/strangers even bother to enlarge their number of friends on facebook especially? i mean, i'm not being ignorant but at least, if you really wanna be friends - send me a message; introduce yourself or just a simple hi would do! i feel that it's kinda rude when you go around adding people you don't even know of unto your facebook. i would prefer to have contacts on my facebook who are REALLY friends, not just some weirdo or stalker or "i-just-add-you-to-make-me-look-like-i-have-heaps-of-friends" blah. get a life.

so many strays infront of my place!
& this is their everyday hang out place =p

♥ BEAUTY FROM PAIN ♥
why this title you may ask.
on Wednesday I went to get my first Miro-Fractional Laser treatment done on my face

Purpose : Tired of photoshop & i want an airbrushed complexion LOL.
Well, when I turned 16, severe acne hit me - it changed my life, took away my happiness for a while and robbed me off my self confidence; yes. i had Acne Vulgaris; considered one of the most severe acne cases. ("right click, open link in new tab" for photos from google). I hated myself at that point. Hated the way people used to stare. Hated it when people ask "ohmygod what happened?". I remember tearing whenever I look into the mirror. it sucks. With proper consultation and medication, the acne went away. But they left me with deep horrible scars. Right after, I went for 6 IPLaser treatments, it kinda helped to lighten up the scars.. but yet, it won't go away. until today, when i look into the mirror, man, i don't remember when was the last time i had skin this nice =) thanks to modern technology.

LOL.. laugh all u want, cuz im laughing too
i'm the one on the right. man, i had mono eyelids -.-
look at the acne! couldn't find a better picture to show you guys
(will try to find where i kept the CD for the old pics)

Benefits :
i. One time of this equals 3-5 times IPLaser treatment
ii. Cures severe acne scars + sun-damaged skin + accident scars
iii. Reverses what time does to your skin
iv. Improves your skin texture

Downfall :
i. HURTS LIKE MAD although numb cream was applied 45 minutes before the treatment started. i almost teared during the process :(
ii. I even took painkillers (paracetamol) right after..
iii. Redness; you'll look like you're horribly sun-burnt and it may last up to 6 days
iv. Skin may peel on the 4th-6th day
v. 30-45 minutes directly after the treatment, you'll feel like your skin is burning. literally. (DAMN PAINFUL AHHH @#$#$%$%^#$#@!#$%^&*!!!)

Cost :
i. It's around RM3k for 6 times but please consult your skin specialist/doctor; price may vary.

Results :
Today is the 3rd day of my 1st Microfractional Laser treatment. My skin's reacting really good to it although I have to apply tons of moisturizer throughout the day.. I can already see the difference and it feels smoother + tighter =) despite of the redness, people are already complementing!

Remarks :
It is completely safe. The laser beam that is projected into the skin acts to "awaken" the tissues in the epidermis layer. Proven scientifically.

(note : these photos are not edited except for the copyright)

box box box box

more box box box box box box on the right side of my face
*contact me if you're interested to seek skin help - i know a good doctor*


but the boxes on my face didn't really stop me from going out
all i needed was a cap :P

had dinner at sushiking with bernard and daniel
they call me "ciu-ciu-ciu"(lasergun) face -.-



played snooker with the boys

this will be up next ;)

this obsession

*edited*

this was then [early october 2008]

this is now. took this picture like 15-30 minutes ago.
and yes, i have polkadotty-walls..

i don't wanna freakin' care no more.

time after time~

omgomgomgomg.
i have quite a lot to do today - and yet, here i am; blogging!
i need to get my butt to my high school to sign some papers in order to obtain my original O & A levels certificate. Then, I have to continue packing because I'm only 80% done. Right. I'm having a major headache packing this time; had to pack for my photo shoot and also that interview I'm going to for SIA. Cramming 'going to the gym' into today's schedule. I guess I can chill at night. but then I need to unpack -.-


nonetheless, here are two pictures of my new hair.
yep, it's NOT red anymore.
actually, it still is. dark brown with dark red undertones;
didn't do it that way lah. the red wouldn't absorb any color perfectly, except if i go for JETblack.
Jetblack? omigod. no way. if i had it done that way, I wouldn't be able to have any other colors on my head until new hair grows.


well! i'm moving to Penang in less than 4 hours!
I need to go for some serious job hunting, shopping and tanning.
cannot already, I'm getting fairer each second;
even my dad says I smuggled into Malaysia from the Antartics.

went out with a group of friends the other day.
took this at some japanese restaurant at Pulau Tikus
[dont remember what's it called]

dont remember who took this but this is sooo random :D
i look like some celebrity (perasan/siok sendiri) in action.

i better be going!
time does not wait upon anyone.

we cannot change time,
but time can change us.

FINALLY !

before I start,
IM SO EXCITED!
KOH SAMUI IN 3 WEEKS!
BEACHESSS, PARTIESSSS!!!!
KOH SAMUI! OMIGOD. YES.
im so so so so so so so so so so so excited!

*joy to the world*
FINALS are finally O-V-E-R.

you can't imagine how happy or how thankful I am at the moment.
NO more romantic nights on the bed with the table lamp on - face to face,
my hands on its body; paying so much attention to even the smallest details.
what i meant right there is - late night revising.
those nasty eye bags from studying and from sleep deprivation are finally gone.
gone baby, GONE. my main consent right now is whether if I would score thoroughly
well or either just glade nicely through the passing line.

had lunch at Max's with my course mates after watching a movie at Queensbay.
it was that new Jackie Chan one - Forbidden Kingdom
Not too bad, I kind of enjoyed it!

i ordered roasted pork!
YUM YUM YUM YUM...!!!


did some shopping right after!
browsed through the new collections at MNG
i have A LOT to catch up upon.

forever21.
yeah. i know. i dont look good in dresses. omg.
i tried on 5, and NEHHHH.

the red headed princess (title given by goodboygonebad.com) has gone subtle today.
i was so nervous when i was getting my hair colored; as if i was at the dentists', ya know
i.dont.look.like.me.
BAAH. this is unacceptable :(
even some friends said "whoa, this is not you!"
but whatever lah. it's just hair.
can always get it back to red, right?

sometimes, it is OKAY to be ordinary.

BACK to basics

I feel amazingly happy and contented
I finally get to see my very own Marco Polo after 4 days today!


Gym was pretty tiring today;
was there from 4pm up to like 710pm.
it was alright, although at around 6 plus, Rafael almost killed me with those Latin moves.
THAT was by far the most tiring class I've ever been to
(probably because I didn't eat anything for the whole day and had a dance class earlier).
however, I think I can shake half as good as shakira now -
or maybe only 1/4 just as good as she is. heh :P


and I lost another 1.5kgs
Been almost two weeks in now, and I already lost a good 3.5kgs! YES!
i'm on my way, tra la la la la~


Met up with Jasmine and Jason for sushiking later on, and godamnit - we devoured almost 20 plates of sushi altogether.
THIS happens whenever we get a discount or a promotion going on. there-goes-my-so-called-diet!
anyway, thanks Ralph - for the ride!

I was looking through my photos on my laptop; those 1 year old ones
Stumbled upon a couple that made me miss my uber long hair.

took this when i was a waitress at some japanese restaurant
LOOK how long my hair was and how different I look back then.

ohmigod.
i wish i could turn back time ]:

my 19th birthday. i think. or was it the 18th one?
seriously, i'm missing my old hair.

OMFGWTFBBQ. this is classic!
with jasmine - one of our crazy stay overs!
remember the slushie-on-joyce's-hair and the fart story? HAHAHAHA.

i've decided to keep my hair longer from now onwards.
NO MORE bob cuts for me - yups, sayonara :D



ANYWAY, that's NOT the highlight of this post
THIS IS!!

VERY, very soon.
i've made up my mind; 100%.
might do it tomorrow or this weekend, idk!

sneak peek of how I MIGHT look like by next week.
do check back!


waddya think? long/short hair?
red/brown/black hair?

alrighty, i'm off to bed now.
it's almost 330 in the morning!

some insights

Sucking too hard on your lollipop,
Or love's gonna get you down.
Say love, say love,
Or love's gonna get you down.
[lollipop - MIKA]

the cutest song ever!!
lollipoppp~~ ey~~ singing ba-dap-dap-ba-dap-dap.

eh what if i look like this everyday?
would people still want to date me? lol
and oh, thanks to charleskey for the picture!

okay. cut-the-crap.
i'm sitting for a paper for my core subject tomorrow. finals are somehow killing me in someways but it never stopped me from having fun :) i'm a FREE clown bird tomorrow when the clock hits 5.15pm; when the examiners start to collect the answer sheets. I can't wait seriously.


another thing is that, I'm applying for SIA's (Singapore Airlines) cabin crew. Interview's in two weeks time and I'm already freaking out. Been doing lots of research and been asking my aunt (who was once a stewardess and now, she's a chief flight attendant) about the job and the interview - not as easy as most of you or I thought it would be. If all goes well, I'm gonna stop doing my degree in USM and reside in Singapore for a couple of months for training. It's a green light for me as I already talked to my parents and to some of my friends; I would most probably stand out for my height. But I might be reconsidering all of this again IF I am ever offered a job with SIA. Hence, the hair on my head is going back to BLACK.


My heart is already aching; because I'm pulling the plug on the red that's been with me for a couple of month's now - it has already been my trademark, but I'm gonna have to lose it. It's really almost impossible for me to look for a job with this hair. An employer even told me once that the RED is unacceptable. oh well. :( Nevertheless, I would be even happier if I were to be granted a job upon giving up my-so-called-'trademark'.
Back to basics, Minny. Back to basics.


Oh well enough of me ranting, I'm gonna sound like my mother someday soon (OH NO!).
Gotta get back to the books now; they miss me - i know. haha.

sometimes I wish I can foresee the future;
then life would not be so complicated.
but what is life without complication?;
as what is art without imagination?

one day closer

alright, so here's the dirt - i woke up, packed my things, showered, got into my gym outfit, put on those running shoes, and slang on my backpack. It's been at least 2 1/2 months since i last stepped into the gym. I miss the feeling that I get when I shower right after I let my body cool down from all those cardio I did. Boy, talk about slacking - I gained back the weight I lost after 2-3 months of regular cardio workout and gained another 4-5kgs. HAHAHAHA. I'm glad my dress size didn't change, you know.

I feel fat. And whenever I munch in whatever food that's more than needed, I feel a tinge of guilt.. I need to get back that urge to always want to workout like how I used to be months back!

So tell me, when was the last time you actually stared into the mirror and get this in your mind - "omfgmtfwtf have i done to myself" and start being health cautious again? So do you wanna lose weight? Let's do it together. I've already jotted down my weight and took measurements of my body and we'll see how you and I both improve in a week-month's time. what about that? :)

the secret?
eat healthy, work out, no late night meals, no starvation, more veggie/fruit and liquid intake.
try this, in a matter of just a week or two, you'll shed weight.
hey, i did it before and succeeded - which shows that we can do it again!

Anyway,
It's so true that to lose weight, dieting alone won't help. You'll end up feeling weak around the clock and gaining more weight when you start eating proper meals again (metabolism, baby). I watched some really gross short clips on YouTube yesterday. Go into it and type "thinspiration" or "anorexia" and you'll end up watching girls that would starve themselves to be thin - the nasty way. beauty to the bones, they claim.

man, i dont wanna end up looking like that.

DO YOU?

alright, im running late,
will be replying the comments and tagboard messages a.s.a.p!
*scampers off*