the day after.

OKAY!
first off,
i'm all good now.
no longer sad or anything.
and i really wanna thank some people.

MARX : for being ever so understanding and supportive. you were the one who listened to my rants THE MOST.

SYMEON : for your encouraging words (: to which reminded me of so many things.

JULIAN : i don't know how to thank you enough! thanks for being there for me and letting me be EMO for a moment. lol

JASMINE : for being there for me.

TOMIE the baboon, DAVID, JOOSING, JISHYANG, LOGICYUAN, GLACIUS, GWEN and many others. (you know who you are) ♥ your words are words of comfort and encouragement. thanks so much (:

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as u all know (if u've been reading my bulletins on friendster),
i have horrible looking hair now.
the color's totally faded;
the layers has lost its bounciness.
the style has lost its shape and cut.

i was just looking through my myspace friend list;
at my friend's friend's friends.. blablabla
and i stumbled upon a few chics who have amazing hair!

i've been thinking of going black and red (:
or perhaps brown?
i dont know;
lol but i seriously should pay my hairdressers a visit.

ANYWAY! last night was proper fun.
went out with my friends for seafood at TAMBUN,
then off to Autocity for Swensens.
I look tired, weird, fugly and most of all my hair is a disaster.
well, don't blame me;

i mean, i was literally crying the whole day.

something random (:
ate so much at tambun.
crabs, fish, noodles, mussels,
octopus, cuttlefish, prawns.
oh boy;

left for Autocity at 10pm.

the whitesssss,

the redsssss.

BOO! hahahahaa

Fenness.

awww.

er.
eww?
i hate me hair.

we had yummylicious ice cream!
oh yeah, and i bumped into Jonathan (:
as in, Charis' brother @ Swensens.

okay,
i've finished ranting.
you can go now (:

got my results.

yeah. results were out at 11am.
dragged my feet to school to get it.
my results were, horrible - it wasn't what i expected.
i mean, i expected more.

only one of my friends got a 4 GPA.
a few, obtained a 3 ++.
for most people, not more than 3, not lesser than 2.75 (i'm among these peeps)
some, not even reaching a 2.
some, failed a few subjects.

my teachers said my GPA is good enough.
FYI, I obtained only 1A,
I expected 2, at least.
i did not fail any subjects.
i got 2Bs.
And a C.
damn;
what the hell went wrong?
how am i supposed to get a place in the University with such results?
why can't i be smarter?

so, why am i complaining?
why do i feel like the world has stopped turning?
i feel so; depressed.
like, totally useless.

i felt like i let myself down.
i let my parents down especially.
i don't know how to face them.
i couldn't even talk to them.
i did my very best,
i hope they know.

i should be thankful for my results i know,
but i couldn't stop blaming myself.

i'm never good enough.
i always come in second.
nobody is ever proud of me.
i'm always compared.

screw it.

i'm out.

3 day update.

let the pictures do the talking;
went to autocity with friends,
the day before our stpm results are announced.

@ hongkie restaurant.

Harrison, Fenness and myself.

after dinner,
friends came over for a stayover.
everyone was too nervous to sleep.

played monopoly.
and I WON! (:

jenga too.

LOSER Minny.

they played chess.
and then we chit chatted until sunrise.

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SUNDAY.

yups.
went to church.
jasmine and jacob came (:

she's gonna kill me if she sees this.
lmao.

roxy-fied.

jacob and me!
www.jacoblim.blogspot.com;
i think?

ah;
lovelies.
(:

jacob's ride.

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TUESDAY.



went out with charlene, jasmine,
eusern, my sister,
yee en and KKK.
to gurney.
it was proper fun.
bought some stuffs from thebodyshop.
(:

watched BRIDGE TO TERABITHIA.
it sucked.
big time.
wasted our money really.

Kim Gary's for dinner.

KKK.

random.

more pics at my sisters blog.
click here.

i just cant be bothered.
not in the right mood.
baah;